Faiza — Haji: Transforming My Reality
Faiza Circa 2020
01/25/22
I slowly recall changing my name from Faiza to Haji near the beginning of college. I feel as thought it was a conscious decision I felt deep in my spirit to move forward and become someone I really resonated with Haji. Faiza was a young woman who experienced a plethora of things that made her look at the world differently. She was in and around toxic environments & behaviors. Some of these factors led her to be someone who she didn’t exactly want to be, she was vibrating from a lower frequency. Although she had good intentions at times she did hurt people, she in turn was hurt as well. She used words that weren’t affirming or empowering, she had friends who although were great at the time were really just meant to reflect back where she was at that stage. We were all dealing with conditioning and coping in our own ways. Imperfect.
Haji Circa 2022
As of right now, I believe that I’ve grown wiser. I’m beginning to realize that true wisdom is knowing that you know nothing at all. My experiences have taught me that perspective is everything. I got that very word tatted to remind me of two things:
1. everyone has a different point of view on things, there will always be another side to the story
2. regardless of everything my view will always be limited in some shape or form, whether it be by experience, conditioning, or the multitude of factors that can impact an individual's perspective.
This isn’t exactly a bad thing, it’s just a reminder that we are all complex beings each with our own unique experiences. I’m very proud of myself because I'm speaking life into my world. I am no longer settling for less. Haji knows what she wants and goes after it boldly. I hold myself to a higher standard because I’m my own number one fan. She is a lifelong learner, lover of the arts, and a multifaceted queen who will always overcome.
Thank you for sharing this space with me beautiful people.I appreciate you and your continued support. Much love & light.
